This song is basically about feeling alone in a crowd of people. Honestly, the truth about the inspiration for this song comes
from my spending the time in the holding center, and being disconnected from everyone and everything during the time I was
in trouble. It's about questioning yourself, and wondering how you got to the spot you're in. It's about realizing that the
more things you do out of charecter, the more you actually change. I often looked at myself in the mirror and asked out loud
if this all was really happening, and the more I looked at myself, the more I realized it really was going on. This burden
had become a part of my life that I had to deal with. Now that it's over, it's easy for me to look back at how I felt because
it was so unreal. Sort of like watching a real weird movie. You can recall all the insane details in it, because it was so
weird. That's what the whole experience was like. I was beside myself. I saw what was happening to my personal life from an
outside point of view. So that's what this is all about.
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